A big part of my battle with Borderline Personality Disorder has been accepting the things that I did not in the past accept. I see myself not as an emotional wreck (ALL THE DAMN TIME), but a caring and loving person who experiences the full weight of my surroundings in a unique way. Accepting the […]
The toughest thing that I have concluded during my ongoing journey battling Borderline Personality Disorder is that a big part of healing is to not dwell on past events. This been a massive undertaking being as I can not help but feel like I created a lot of chaos during my first 44 years. I […]
For much of my adult life I have known that an inner battle was being waged within me. This battle has been with the knowledge that if I let my guard down, the power of addiction could easily overtake me and allow what for most people is a casual drink here or there, into something […]
Accepting that change in inevitable is hard…but living in the moment is harder. To accept who you are…is not to forget who you were or dream of who you will be…but it is the path to peace!
Lately my posts here have been getting progressively darker. For those reading them it may seem that I am in a downward spiral and that with my ongoing challenge of living with Borderline Personality Disorder there is a risk for truly bad things are afoot. I would not entirely disagree with that assessment. In fact […]
I sit here preparing for my weekly therapy session and think about all the things that have changed recently in my life. The loss that I have experienced in the past 6 months has been incredible, the changes in my life and lifestyle have been dramatic, my health while stable is still in question every […]
It has been said that anything that doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. For the most part I think of that statement as utter rubish, but then I look at the past 4 months of my life and start to think that my own strength comes from the challenges that I have faced.
Life is filled with many cross roads. There comes a time when all things that exist must make a choice…to exist or to cease to exist. Each day I wake up and make a choice to exist. To move on. To live. To thrive. Most days I don’t second guess this choice but then there […]
My life has been more than a little chaotic lately but a recent experience is one that I absolutely must share. My time in therapy has tought me that my emotions are not only to be listened to; but embraced, encouraged and enveloped. This new found realization has led me to see things for the […]
This journey that I am on has proven to be far more difficult than I ever could have anticipated. You see, part of what I am today is because of a deep rooted love that I have for the greatest woman I have ever met. Before this latest chapter was opened, we were to be […]