As hard as I try, there never seems to be an end to the challenges that face me. The biggest challenge that I face on a daily basis is knowing where my illness ends and a shitty string of luck begins. Is it really possible that any one person can have as much crap fall […]
The toughest thing that I have concluded during my ongoing journey battling Borderline Personality Disorder is that a big part of healing is to not dwell on past events. This been a massive undertaking being as I can not help but feel like I created a lot of chaos during my first 44 years. I […]
For much of my adult life I have known that an inner battle was being waged within me. This battle has been with the knowledge that if I let my guard down, the power of addiction could easily overtake me and allow what for most people is a casual drink here or there, into something […]
Accepting that change in inevitable is hard…but living in the moment is harder. To accept who you are…is not to forget who you were or dream of who you will be…but it is the path to peace!
Lately my posts here have been getting progressively darker. For those reading them it may seem that I am in a downward spiral and that with my ongoing challenge of living with Borderline Personality Disorder there is a risk for truly bad things are afoot. I would not entirely disagree with that assessment. In fact […]
Lean into the emotion they say. Let it wash over you they say. Once you have accepted the emotion…let it go. Ok that is all fine and good but as I prepare to have my brain scanned today…I am truly terrified that they will find a tumor, or something bigger to explain the headaches, seizure […]
The changes in my life have me questioning a lot of who I was, who I am and who I will be and at this time of year, when everyone around me seems to be filled with the giving spirit…I can’t help but feel that there is something wrong with how I am feeling. I […]
I sit here preparing for my weekly therapy session and think about all the things that have changed recently in my life. The loss that I have experienced in the past 6 months has been incredible, the changes in my life and lifestyle have been dramatic, my health while stable is still in question every […]
One of the biggest challenges that I face on a daily basis is the feeling of emptiness that I feel. It doesn’t matter what am doing (professionally, personally, emotionally or physically), I can’t help but feel that there is this empty pit that never seems to get filled. I have had this feeling for many, […]
It has been said that anything that doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. For the most part I think of that statement as utter rubish, but then I look at the past 4 months of my life and start to think that my own strength comes from the challenges that I have faced.