The past week has been filled with many ups and downs leading to some very difficult moments that I have been struggling with the concept of being mindful. With my Borderline Personality Disorder I struggle with every emotion, every feeling, hell every conversation. I am trying so damn hard not to read into things but […]
There was a time not to long ago that the thought of being alone and without the one person who had become such a big part of my life had put me into a tail spin that had me contemplating ending it all. This very feeling is what lead to me seeking the help that […]
As hard as I try, there never seems to be an end to the challenges that face me. The biggest challenge that I face on a daily basis is knowing where my illness ends and a shitty string of luck begins. Is it really possible that any one person can have as much crap fall […]
For much of my adult life I have known that an inner battle was being waged within me. This battle has been with the knowledge that if I let my guard down, the power of addiction could easily overtake me and allow what for most people is a casual drink here or there, into something […]
Accepting that change in inevitable is hard…but living in the moment is harder. To accept who you are…is not to forget who you were or dream of who you will be…but it is the path to peace!
I sit here preparing for my weekly therapy session and think about all the things that have changed recently in my life. The loss that I have experienced in the past 6 months has been incredible, the changes in my life and lifestyle have been dramatic, my health while stable is still in question every […]
One of the biggest challenges that I face on a daily basis is the feeling of emptiness that I feel. It doesn’t matter what am doing (professionally, personally, emotionally or physically), I can’t help but feel that there is this empty pit that never seems to get filled. I have had this feeling for many, […]
It has been said that anything that doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. For the most part I think of that statement as utter rubish, but then I look at the past 4 months of my life and start to think that my own strength comes from the challenges that I have faced.
My life has been more than a little chaotic lately but a recent experience is one that I absolutely must share. My time in therapy has tought me that my emotions are not only to be listened to; but embraced, encouraged and enveloped. This new found realization has led me to see things for the […]