There was a time not to long ago that the thought of being alone and without the one person who had become such a big part of my life had put me into a tail spin that had me contemplating ending it all. This very feeling is what lead to me seeking the help that …
Having BPD is a constant battle with the sense of abandonment. I have yet to isolate when and where this feeling started but I know that right now and for most of my adult life I have struggled with this feeling. What is toughest about this part about this illness is that I really like …
A while ago my life circumstances presented me with an opportunity to do something that just a few short weeks ago I would have thought impossible. This challenge has weighed on me for quite some time, calling into question my deepest feelings of abandonment and forcing me to look at what it means to be …
Circumstances in life sometimes have a funny way of bringing about the best of a situation even if that situation is very difficult. You see as my life continues to change and at times I feel like it is crumbling around me, I see these glimmers of a life that is better lived with the …
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They say that knowledge is power but right now I don’t feel so powerful, in fact the some of the things that I know make me feel so very weak. This week has been increasingly difficult to get through and despite hoping that things will get better, I know that it is going to get …
Lately I have been finding it increasingly challenging to even commit to coming here and allowing myself to share what is going on in my life. This challenge has proven to be all consuming as I dart back and forth in my mind from trying to deal with the emotional turmoil that surrounds me. I …
I am finding things really challenging lately. I feel like my life is crumbling around me with all the change that is happening and at the same time this change is more than a little cathartic. Living with BPD is like being in a constant battle with ones self. I am trying so hard to …
I am finding it rather hard to focus lately. It is not so much because I am struggling with my mental health it is in fact the exact opposite. I feel really good for the most part. I am practicing Mindfulness, embracing my Emotional Wellness and generally being content with my new reality. It is …
Despite all the work that I have done to find the peace that I deserve, I do find myself feeling lost in the process of growing into the new me. This new me that is supposed to emerge from being in tune with my emotions and acting with my wise mind instead of acting on …
One of the biggest problems that I have even after all the work I have done on getting better is speaking without thinking. It constantly gets me into trouble and has me saying things that I either don’t mean, or I don’t forsee the consequences of what I am saying and how those words hurt …