For most of my adult life I have not been happy. The reasons are many but it all appears to have been related to my personal burden of having Borderline Personality Disorder. Over the past 14 months since my diagnosis I have been faced with numerous challenges that have brought...
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And so begins another year…new date…same struggles
I truly felt that I was closing out 2017 with a grand new perspective on happiness and wellness and then it all came crashing down for me. As those who come here who suffer from BPD know, the feeling of abandonment is very strong within us and as I struggle...
My New Life is Challenging
After a year of ups and downs and losing myself, I finally gave myself the opportunity to be myself again. It was not easy. In fact it was the single most challenging experience of my life. I was committed to being present, being determined and making it all work...but at...
Resetting Life
It has been a while since I took the time to share my thoughts here. It has been a really challenging few months as I was indecisive about many aspects of what my life was and is. I have continued to practice the skills that I have learned but I...
When Today is Just Enough
I have to say, the past few weeks have been a unique challenge for me. I find myself constantly challenging myself to remain grounded and in the moment but there are many, many times that I drift into some very dark thoughts. I commute 40 minutes to work each day...
Emotional Confusion – How to Be Mindful
The past week has been filled with many ups and downs leading to some very difficult moments that I have been struggling with the concept of being mindful. With my Borderline Personality Disorder I struggle with every emotion, every feeling, hell every conversation. I am trying so damn hard not...
Fresh Perspective…A Living Plan
There was a time not to long ago that the thought of being alone and without the one person who had become such a big part of my life had put me into a tail spin that had me contemplating ending it all. This very feeling is what lead to...
Alone?
Having BPD is a constant battle with the sense of abandonment. I have yet to isolate when and where this feeling started but I know that right now and for most of my adult life I have struggled with this feeling. What is toughest about this part about this illness...
Challenge Accepted – A New Chapter
A while ago my life circumstances presented me with an opportunity to do something that just a few short weeks ago I would have thought impossible. This challenge has weighed on me for quite some time, calling into question my deepest feelings of abandonment and forcing me to look at...
How to be Happy, Sad, Angry and Over Joyed at the Same Time
Circumstances in life sometimes have a funny way of bringing about the best of a situation even if that situation is very difficult. You see as my life continues to change and at times I feel like it is crumbling around me, I see these glimmers of a life that...