Tomorrow will mark 6 months of continuous sobriety. I have not drank in that long several times in my life but to be completely honest I have never been sober for that long. There has been a radical shift in my thought process over that time as I attend AA Meetings, get to know new people and work the steps.
The biggest change for me is that I find myself present in every day situations that I used to detach from.
The changes in me have been profound. It has been a while since I took the time to sit down and share what has been going on in my head mainly because it there has been a shift in how things play out in my head.
When I took the drinking out of the equation for me I truly became a different person. The same insecurities and challenges were there, but I was able to see things in a vastly different light.
Today I practice a lot of humility and try everyday to be gracious and thankful for all that I still have and for all that will come to me as I work through the things that make me who I am. I don’t find myself living in constant fear of the unknown.
I don’t live life plotting and planning for a tomorrow that may never come. I strive to live in the moment and to experience all that today has to offer, both good and bad.
This transformation and the incorporation of the 12 Steps of AA as well as revisiting my DBT training and worksheets and really trying to put them into practice is allowing me to be at peace. With both myself and with the world that I live in.
I am truly fortunate to have real relationships today, ones that I both thought were lost but also ones that I truly needed all my life.
Recovery is possible. The journey is not easy. Today is all we have!