Yesterday was #BellLetsTalk Day here in Canada, a day when the stigma around mental illness is temporarily removed and people are truly able to express, share and communicate about their challenges with and struggles surrounding their mental health. It is a good thing…but for me yesterday was more than just about being able to share my struggles…you see I have been struck down with not only the ongoing diagnosis of BPD but also now I am contending with what can only be described as a debilitating physical ailment:
According to Wikipedia:
Man flu is a pejorative phrase that refers to the idea that men, when they have a cold, exaggerate and claim they have the flu. Whilst a commonly used phrase in the UK and Ireland, it is referred to in other cultures and there is a continuing discussion over the scientific basis for the phrase.
This devastating illness has me sleeping unnatural amounts, wracking up a tremendous kleenex bill and burning through multiple cold and flu tablets, concoctions and remedies like they were tic tacs.
I truly hate being sick…even more than I hate the ongoing battle that I have with my own mental stability. This hatred stems from the lack of energy that I am left with and the need to steer clear of other people so that I don’t infect them with my ailment.
Since gaining understanding about my mental health, I now need to interact with other human beings on a regular basis and while this is still a bit of a shock to my system, I realize now that I have been missing something very profound for a very long time!
Will I get better from this debilitating illness? I certainly hope so but for now, I would actually prefer to be scared and hurt all the time with BPD than have the sniffles, cough and fever that comes with the Man Flu!!!!