The exercise in living my life in the “wise mind” is at times challenging as my old habits of letting my emotional mind and my rational mind control my actions has been the root of my relationship challenges.
Living in the moment is proving to be both a challenge and a highly rewarding practise, one that I wish I had found a long time ago.
In striving to be healthy; at least mentally healthy, I am finding a deeper connection not only to myself and my feelings, but I am really seeing things differently in the world around me.
I am seeing more of the shades of grey that life has to offer.
Not everything can be looked at in black and white terms. This is allowing me to truly connect with those that I do care about deeply. I am breathing deeper, feeling more and living for what seems to be the first time.
For those who have stood by my side this past month and for all the years that I was on my self destructive and lonely path…I am truly thankful for what we have had, what we do have…and what we may have in the future.
Is the rest of this journey going to be easy…no. The reality of both my illness and my recovery is that I will need to continually work at being better, and for the first time I don’t feel like I am doing this alone.